Warrior Angel Page 8

  While Johnson drank coffee with the early birds, mostly middle-aged businessmen who hit the bag and skipped rope before work, Starkey got down on his hands and knees to scrub at some old bloodstains on the splintery wooden floor. He hoped Johnson was looking.

  It was a long, slow morning without Sonny, mopping and fetching water and doing the laundry. Starkey wondered when Sonny was coming back.

  If, said the Voices.

  Two strangers showed up at the gym that afternoon, black guys in black leather with a lot of heavy gold around their necks and wrists. One of them had the same snake tattoo coming up his neck that Cobra Rasheed had on his chest. Johnson was out, or he’d have been at the door in a flash to check them out, Starkey thought. But none of Johnson’s assistants made a move, and once Cobra hugged the two men, it was too late.

  Starkey watched them swagger around the gym, making comments to each other and laughing. Sonny had told him there were rumors that Cobra was still a member of an L.A. gang he’d joined in prison. He wondered if these were fellow gang members.

  Starkey forced them out of his mind and went deep into his mopping rhythm. He was starting to get it, dragging instead of pushing the ropy tangle. He needed to concentrate. He had sent Sonny back to Alfred—it was part of helping him break loose from Hubbard. It was part of his Mission. But Alfred was an old cop—those guys are paranoid. He wouldn’t like Sonny having a friend. He might poison Sonny against me.

  Just mop, Starkey, those are the Voices whispering to you, trying to mess you up.

  “Hey, chicken chest, where’s my water?”

  It took him a moment to realize Cobra was yelling at him. No problem. Starkey could take Cobra yelling at him. It was almost an honor, because it was Cobra’s way of getting at Sonny. It made Starkey feel closer to Sonny to take the abuse. Cobra bullied the champ’s pal because Cobra was afraid to go up against the champ.

  “Afraid? What planet you on, Looney Tunes?”

  Cobra’s friends laughed.

  A rough, unfamiliar voice said, “Save it for the fight, Rasheed. You’ll need it.”

  “Wha’ you say?” Cobra looked surprised.

  The rough voice said, “Chill.”

  It took Starkey a moment to realize that the voice was coming out of his own mouth. He must be channeling an Archie. He felt light-headed with the honor of it.

  “I’m talkin’ to you,” said Cobra.

  That didn’t register until one of the gang-bangers said, “He’s talkin’ to you,” and flicked the bill of Starkey’s Tomahawk Kid cap.

  The snakes on Cobra’s chest moved. Starkey hoped it was just Cobra flexing his pecs. He didn’t want to go down in flames now, just when he was getting a grip.

  “What do you want?” It was Starkey’s normal voice now, sounding small and weak.

  “You brain dead?” asked the gangbanger who had touched the cap. “The Snake needs water. Move your little gay butt.”

  The other fighters and trainers in the gym were suddenly very busy. No one wanted a piece of this. Starkey felt alone. He wished Sonny were here. How do you handle a psycho thug? Even as he thought it, he knew he was saying it out loud.

  “What you call me?”

  Starkey’s rough voice said, “You deaf as well as stupid, psycho thug?”

  Cobra touched his friend’s arm. “Slip it, Trey, his elevator don’t go to the top.”

  Trey jerked his arm away. “You hear what he call me?” The snake on his neck opened its mouth and lunged at Starkey, fangs dripping with black venom. It knocked his cap off.

  Starkey watched the red cap skitter across the floor before he raised the mop. He was amazed at the clarity of his mind, the Warrior Angel clicking into battle mode. He slapped the soapy, wet ropes of the mop into Trey’s face, stepped back, turned the handle, and drove the stick deep into Trey’s gut. The gangbanger fell backward.

  Starkey broke the handle over his knee. He held the jagged end out like a sword and screamed, “Dare you challenge a Warrior Angel?”

  Cobra was whispering to his friends, “Easy, homes, no trouble here.”

  “There will always be trouble until the Legion of Evil surrenders to the Forces of Good.” He loved hearing his thundering words echo in the hushed gym.

  “See, boy’s crazy,” whispered Cobra, trying to herd his friends toward the door. “You don’t want no piece a this.”

  Starkey felt the broomstick wavering in his hand. It was getting heavy. The snakes were shrinking back, mouths closing.

  “What’s goin’ on?” Johnson stormed across the gym, dragging his leg and pulling his beard. “Put that down!”

  Starkey dropped the stick as if it had been slapped out of his hand.

  “Who these guys?”

  “They just leavin’,” said Cobra, pushing his friends toward the door.

  Cursing, rolling their eyes, they swaggered out of the gym.

  Starkey felt small, empty. The Archies had abandoned him, Sonny had abandoned him, the Voices had taken over. He bent over to pick up his cap and the room tilted, the floor came up into his face.

  17

  SONNY WOKE BEFORE dawn, feeling a cold prickle among the hairs on the back of his neck. It was a signal that enemies were about to strike, according to Jake. More Running Braves crap. But he felt a distant anxiety, like a telephone ringing in another room. He went to the bathroom and leaned into the bathtub and ran cold water on the back of his neck. In the kitchen he made coffee and watched the Weather Channel. Might rain later. He pushed away an urge to call the gym, make sure Starkey was all right. He’d be sleeping. Think I’m the crazy one.

  He went out for a long run. The suburban streets were empty, hushed, house after house with their windows shaded, their eyes closed. He was glad when dogs barked at him from inside the houses. Everybody wasn’t dead.

  At breakfast Alfred said, “You running too much.”

  “Need to get in shape.”

  “For a boxing match, not a marathon.”

  Lena said, “What Alfred’s trying to say—”

  “Trying to say?” Alfred sounded cranky. “I said it. He’s running too much.”

  “That’s not good enough,” snapped Lena. They glared at each other, and Sonny thought, Here’s two people love each other to death, not afraid to talk tough because they’re tight enough to deal with anything. Be nice to have someone like that someday.

  “Okay, what am I trying to say?”

  “Sonny’s running is less about getting physically fit than it is about trying to feel better emotionally, a kind of self-medication. This is dangerous if it means you don’t deal with the issues that trouble you.”

  “My, my, so that’s what I’m trying to say.” Alfred rolled his eyes. “Amazing how these guidance counselors can read your mind.”

  Lena smiled and touched Sonny’s hand. “It’s been a hard time for you. Give yourself a break.”

  “Got a fight in three weeks,” said Sonny.

  “You might want to talk to somebody,” said Lena.

  The girls staggered in, sleep in their eyes, hugged Sonny, grabbed bowls of cereal, and staggered off to the big TV in the living room.

  “Saturday-morning rules,” said Lena. “Only time they can watch TV on their own.”

  “She runs this house like Mr. Donatelli ran the gym,” said Alfred.

  “Have you ever thought about seeing a therapist?” Lena wasn’t giving up.

  “A therapist?” said Sonny, stalling.

  “A sports shrink,” said Alfred. “Talk about why you can’t pull the trigger on combinations.”

  Sonny thought about Dr. Gould and remembered what Hubbard had said. The new mot-to in sports: You gotta get shrunk to get bigger.

  “I’m serious,” said Alfred.

  “There was this psychologist in Vegas. Hubbard called him.”

  “Worked for Hubbard?” Alfred made a face.

  “Doctor didn’t think so. Hubbard fired him.”

  Lena said, “You liked h
im?”

  “He was all right.”

  “Maybe he could recommend somebody in New York,” said Lena. “Or I could ask around.”

  Sonny tried to sound joky. “I’ll come talk to you.”

  “I’m sure I could help to a certain extent,” said Lena. The way she was sitting and looking at him, Sonny thought of Dr. Gould, friendly and interested. “There’s some things you just have to think about.”

  “Like what?” asked Sonny. He was surprised to find that he was interested, too. He thought of all the questions Starkey had asked. Or tried to ask.

  “Well, the running away, to begin with. People do that for all sorts of reasons. Sometimes they’re scared of being hurt, rejected, so they leave before they can be left. Sometimes they’re afraid of being trapped in a relationship. They don’t want to be under another person’s power. Or they don’t want the feeling of people depending on them.”

  “This is a little heavy for breakfast,” said Alfred. He looked uncomfortable.

  “I don’t know when I’ll have another chance,” said Lena. “Are you okay with this, Sonny?”

  He nodded. His throat was dry.

  “A lot of people are afraid of something, Sonny.” She reached out again and put her hand over his. “Just remember that Alfred and I are with you all the way. If you want us. Just think about it.”

  Lena sat back and bit her lip. Out of the corner of his eye Sonny saw Alfred give her a thumbs-up. Lena smiled. “More orange juice, Sonny?”

  After a second, Sonny croaked, “Thanks.”

  They ate in silence for a while, glancing at the newspaper, smiling at each other, yelling at the girls to lower the TV. There was something in what Lena had said, something he would think about on his own. It could help answer his own questions about himself. But not right now. He wanted to wallow in the sweet comfort of the morning.

  They were almost finished with breakfast when the front door banged open and a chubby young black man with round glasses on his owl face burst in. “Yo, Tomahawk.”

  “Martin Malcolm Witherspoon, the Writing Brave,” said Sonny. He wondered if this was a setup. He felt too relaxed to care.

  “How many eggs?” asked Lena.

  “How many you got?” said Marty. He gave Sonny a light punch on the arm. “How you doin’, man? Great interview on ESPN. I loved that line of yours, ‘Do I look crazy to you?’ Right up there with ‘Go ahead, punk, make my day,’ and ‘You lookin’ at me?’”

  Sonny could tell that Marty was talking so fast because he was nervous. After a few minutes they started talking about Marty. He had transferred to a college in the city but was thinking about dropping out again to write for a new magazine that would send him overseas. Sonny was surprised that it was Alfred who urged him to stay in school, get his degree, and Lena who said take a chance if the assignment was good enough.

  Sonny tuned out, let his mind go blank and open. He thought of Starkey and the calm feeling began to drain away. He began to feel restless, jittery. Maybe he was edgy from overtraining. He had run at least ten miles this morning. But Starkey’s face and then his voice were pushing into his mind. Calling him back.

  “I got to go,” he said.

  “We thought you’d stay the weekend.” Lena sounded disappointed.

  “People waiting on me. I’ll be back.”

  “Wait’ll I finish,” said Marty. “I’ll drive you.”

  “I can take the—”

  “Let Marty drive you,” said Alfred. Sonny could tell that Alfred wanted Marty and him together again. That might be okay. Like Lena said, just think about it.

  Marty had his father’s car, an old brown Volvo that moved through traffic like a little tank. Every other car beat it at light changes, even the SUVs.

  “Jake’s pickup,” said Marty, “could blow this clunker off the road.”

  “Truck was modified,” said Sonny. “Jake raced it a few times when he was younger.”

  “He never told me that.”

  “You were too busy with the Redskin hoodoo.” From the corner of his eye he saw the round brown owl face wince. “Running Braves. Stonebird Mountain.”

  Marty laughed. “Yeah, Stonebird. I was going to go with you on the solo.”

  Sonny laughed. It wasn’t that funny, but it helped break the ice between them. “So, you gonna stay in school?”

  “Thought I might start hanging with you again.”

  “Write another book?”

  “Bring it up-to-date for the paperback.”

  “That’s why you showed up?” He could hear the annoyance in his voice.

  “Alfred invited me,” said Marty. “But I wouldn’t have come if it wasn’t all right with you.”

  “How’d you know it was all right with me?”

  “Got the e-mail from your…assistant trainer.”

  “What are you talking about?” Even as he said it, Sonny figured it out. The Warrior Angel pulling strings. Helping him again.

  “You didn’t know?”

  “Forgot,” said Sonny. He didn’t think it sounded convincing.

  “Kid sounds like a certified nutjob.”

  Again he felt he needed to defend Starkey. “He helped me out, got me in gear.”

  “‘The Warrior Angel is on his way.’ Sounds like stalking by e-mail.”

  “Who told you that?”

  “Malik.”

  “You talking to him?”

  “For the update, yeah. You know, it’s really quite common, fan becomes fixated on a celebrity.”

  Sonny wondered if Marty was afraid Starkey would get in his way. “You’ll get a chapter out of him.”

  “You think I’m just here for that?” When Sonny didn’t answer, Marty kicked the Volvo into speed.

  When they got to the gym, Starkey was rolled up into a ball in a corner of the couch, his knees against his chest, hugging his elbows. His face was hidden by the bill of a ratty old red cap.

  “He been like this, won’t talk,” said Johnson. “Kid’s a lunatic. Don’t want him around no more.”

  “Let me alone with him,” said Sonny. He waited until Johnson left. “You okay?”

  Starkey looked up. “Who’s that?”

  Sonny realized that Marty had come into the room behind him. “Marty Witherspoon.”

  “The man who wrote The Book?”

  Marty puffed up and patted Starkey’s shoulder. “We’re here now—everything’s gonna be fine.”

  “Starkey, what happened?”

  “Cobra’s friends. I…kind of lost it. Where were you?”

  Everyone wanted a piece of him. Just like always. “Just stay here, be cool. I’ll talk to Johnson.” When he saw Starkey squinting at Marty, he said, “Talk to the great writer. The two of you deserve each other.”

  He couldn’t keep the anger out of his voice.

  18

  THE VOICES WERE soft but insistent, murmuring from the faces on old fight posters, whispering from the peeled patches on the ceiling, warning Starkey to be watchful, to be ready to run. He couldn’t trust anyone anymore.

  Marty Witherspoon had asked too many questions yesterday. It was more like an interview than a conversation. Why? What had Sonny talked about with Alfred? He had talked with Johnson for a long time before he’d come back to the office and said that Starkey could stay, but one more outburst and he’d have to leave.

  They want to get rid of you, Starkeeeeee.

  Mopping helped. He poured extra disinfectant into the water so the fumes were needles in his nose. He scrubbed the grimy wooden floor until his back and shoulders ached, until his thighs quivered, welcoming the pain that wiped out all other thoughts. He focused on rubbing out the old brown bloodstains until the floor-boards rose and went snaky and the Voices slipped up from the cracks.

  Starkeeeeee, they want to send you back to the Family Place, baaack to Whitmore, baaaaaack to Stepdad’s slammer.

  He tried a trick that sometimes worked, squeezing the Voices out of his brain, like wringing
the mop, squeezing them to the inside of his skull, then pushing them out his ears by silently chanting, I am on a Mission for the Creator, I am a Warrior Angel on a Mission for the Creator.

  “That some kind of song?” asked Johnson. Starkey hadn’t seen him come up.

  “Helps me mop.” What else could he say?

  “Just so it ain’t rap.”

  If he could concentrate on something else, he could keep the Voices at bay. Out on the bike following Sonny at dawn today was good, but the long morning until the professional trainers and fighters filled the gym was hard. It got better when they stomped in, shouting, crowding the room with their busy noise, heavy bags thumping, the slap-slap-slap of jump ropes, the rat-a-ta-ta-tat of the peanut bags, bells, buzzers, the amped music all filling his mind with rhythms that pushed the Voices and the shape-shifters into the nooks and crannies of his skull.

  The boxers were mostly black and Latino, and some of them looked him over with narrow eyes, as if they wondered why a white kid was scrubbing the floor. When they tossed him a towel or a water bottle to fill, they just grunted. But every so often Sonny would pass by and say something to him, which made him cool to everyone and he felt good.

  You think he really cares about you? the Voices asked.

  He knows I’m here to help him.

  Help him clean the gym? He left you alone as soon as he could.

  He passed Cobra shadowboxing. The reflection in the mirror glared at him, and the two snakes on his chest opened their mouths wider. Their fangs dripped. He hurried toward the washer and dryer with a mountain of towels.

  Hubbard’s voice filled the gym before Starkey saw him. “No fear, I’m here, at the camp of the champ. I come in peace.”

  Cobra growled, “You could leave in pieces.”

  “Always liked that mean streak of yours, Rasheed. Tells me I can count on you in the late rounds when the going gets tough.”

  The snakes relaxed on Cobra’s chest, smiled. Starkey thought, Hubbard’s the snake, world’s fattest snake. He recognized the two young men, one white, one black, trailing behind him. The idiot managers, Boyd and Malik.